Keep looking for rainbows

If you wanna burn yourself, remember that i love you,
If you wanna cut yourself, remember that i love you,
If you wanna kill yourself, remember that i love you,
Call me up before you're dead, and we can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend.
- Loose Lips by Kimya Dawson

Things haven't been going well at the moment, as you can probably all tell from my more recent deviations, but I'm alive so it can't be that bad.

One suggestion i do have for everyone, if they ever feel depressed... (it did work for a few days with me) is to listen to Kimya Dawson for an hour and try to think that, perhaps, a permanent solution to a likely to be non-permanent problem will only limit you from seeing the smile around the next corner.

Oscar Wilde once said "All of us are lying in the gutter, but some of us are staring at the stars".
I say, "keep looking for the rainbows" because as beautiful as stargazing can be, it's not that helpful if you are feeling your insignificance in comparison to the rest of the universe.

I live on, deciding that giving up is not a way to get to that next unexpected wonder. Hopefully my words will help, rather than hinder someone, because often things don't come out the way i expected. If they do, perhaps another smile will reach me some day soon.

That's what i mean when i say 'don't get hung up on it'. I'm not trying to tell you your problems aren't valid, I'm just trying to say that you don't have to let them be the end of your world.  It's never your fault that you have problems, but wouldn't you rather take a positive step to say that you have tried than to wallow in self pity because it's happened to you. I would.

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learn the choco dance and we can do it at the may expo.^_^ i will do the tutorial soon i promise.

Just a reminder, here are my cosplay & costume plans:

May expo sat: Soifon (bleach group cosplay. woot!)
May expo sun: Hinata ANBU (because i'm dying my hair blue-black and getting a fringe cut for soifon cosplay)
Tenten and Nana will be repeated at some point but i don't know when. maybe the next memorabilia convention depending on when it is.

my cosplay buddies: